It could be said that a person is comes alone into this life when she is born and has to leave alone from this life when she dies. There are no strings attached when a baby is born. However, all through life we keep knotting ourselves with so many strings – of relationships, of wealth, of power, of greed, of emotions, of un-ending desire to be the best ..and the list continues, that when the time to leave dawns upon us, we feel so helpless. The whole purpose achieving salvation through this human body gets wasted by getting tied up in these strings. We completely forget ourselves while dilly dallying all through our life. There are a fortunate few who get the right “Path Pradarshak” (guide) in their lives who shepherds them into the right path always when they stray. I am grateful to god for being born as a human.
I have been grateful and humble of being able have the blessings of such a great “path pradarshak” so early on in my life. This came to happen by sheer chance. All credit goes to my dearest aunt, whose pure and selfless dedication to this man literally drew me to him. I was pulled towards him like an iron pin gets pulled towards a magnet.
It was in 1995, my father had met with a tragic accident, lying paralysed from neck down, with vision left only in one eye. He was in hospital for 6 months. While my father was recuperating, my aunt made her sincere and dedicated attempts at getting this great man to listen to her. From the moment, he spoke the words “you brother will be fine”, things started to change for better and my father’s recovery speeded up. I feel that was the turning point in my life.
As I had mentioned earlier, he drew me towards him. Post completion of my college, I moved to New Delhi in the beginning of the new millennium for further studies and got this chance to meet him in person time and again. The first meeting found me dumbstruck. I just could not say anything. He kept looking at me, with those kind eyes and the sweet smile playing on his face. I kept standing, rooted to the spot, tears of joy flowing through my eyes. I simple could not move. I was mesmerised by the power and the grace. My aunt introduced me and he blessed me. That was enough for me to get hooked on.
In the years that followed, I have had the opportunity of meeting him quiet often in the New Delhi – Chattarpur Shirdi Sai mandir and the Noida Shirdi Sai Mandir.. Every time I met him, my confidence levels soared. I started to feel like a different person with more positive energy. The whole energy transformation happened gradually and I kept evolving as a person.
The good times don’t last long. I had to move cities in the year 2006 and was deprived of my regular meetings with my Guruji. I felt as if he was testing my bhakti and my patience. I felt as if he was just denying me his presence for so long. At first I started blaming him for all this and then I realised it is only for my own good. He has made this happen to allow me to develop myself spiritually and become more self aware. The result was that after 8 long years, I met him at a family function recently and there he was in all white, smiling again at me. He immediately recognised me and said “we are meeting after a very long time”. I was dumbfounded but somehow managed to ask him to come to Bangalore sometime. He replied in the affirmative and blessed me. He was ever so gentle and kind. Humble to the core.
I feel so elated about having the good fortune of having found a guide, a man who has known all, to help me tide over the various strings that might get attached to me. I feel blessed to have my respected Guru, always with me to help me stay detached in this material world.
-Susmita Shroff Susmita Shroff is MBA (Finance). She is a homemaker and freelance mentor. She writes for pleasure and is a voracious reader.